Long time since i've been on here.

Update, Disregard everything before this except the ones that seem like they matter.

I am a punk. pure and simple. In the past month i've developed a bad drinking problem to deal with problems. I shouldn't be doing it and now that i've caught on i am no longer with bottle.

Girlfriend of 2 years dropped me rather abruptly and i really haven't been given the chance to recover through talking. it's rough on me.

I use to be a manipulator. Don't get me wrong and i know K' may read this and this is more for him. i have stolen girls from guys and ive also broken up relationships to suit my own tastes. But now that ive lost something so dear to me i understand the position i screwed. i am sorry for taking fate away but im not the only one to blame k. she was just as readily able to leave as i was to take.

Morgan, to you i write. you are prolly my greatest friend and best critic. you tear me down just as easily as you build me up. you look out for me but refuse to let me think im invincible. when my world came crashing down you put an arm over me to help stop some of the pain but you still let it hit me. i thank you for being there like you are. even though its 2000 miles away.

Danielle, my brit dear. I screwed you over royally. i did love you. and i still do in some respects. you are an amazing girl who has so much ahead of you that you didnt need someone like me around in that way when i was an ocean and a half away. id still like to visit or have you visit me. we need to talk some more. i miss our deep conversations.

Shadow, i've never seen eye to eye with you. and i know you've never forgiven me for what i've done. that's fine. i still consider you a friend in some capacity. i just wanted to tell you i'm not the bastard you think i am.

My friend Coplin is in a wheelchair now i saw him last tuesday. he remembers me but the me from years ago. it was rough to see him to the point i actually cried when i left his place. he's doing well enough but i just wish there was more i can do.

thanks for reading.

Morgan Iori Griffin